Looking back now, however, I think there was also some kind of secret desire hidden within me to make a difference. Once every few months, he took out a Bible and demanded that we all sit down at the dinner table while he read the Psalms.

I had no idea then that I was about to become both stronger and more vulnerable than I’d ever been in my life. It is strange that we can spend a lifetime sitting through church services and actually not really pray. I had troublesome young men with serious reputations filling out feedback forms and providing a whole new insight into their behavioural patterns. In working with them, he recognised many of his own struggles as a young adult with issues of identity, self-worth, confidence, and need to belong, and the urgent need for positive role models.Once ordained, he would love to plant a church and to work with young people to decrease gang culture and knife crime. One that does not, but he mentions in his book, Guns to God, is that he got the chance to trial as goalie for Wimbledon. We don’t share your credit card details with third-party sellers, and we don’t sell your information to others.

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